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Prison Pen-Pal (Chapter 9)

It’s the next day, I already showered and now I’m eating breakfast.

“And y’all think I’m weird but this nigga is smiling while eating this nasty ass breakfast. *10

“He was obviously happy about the news. *Mack

“Oh, the white girl killed herself because she was obsessed like that white girl in the Beyoncé movie. Mmm Beyoncé. *10

“Keep your fantasies to yourself and your cell, crazy nigga. *Max

We laugh

“The two biggest obstacles in my life are either gone or will be gone. And I’m finally happy and in love with the right person. I say

“ He is getting so soft, yuck. *10 

“Shut up. *Mack 

10 start making jokes about another intimate while I get lost in my thoughts. I can’t wait till I talk to my family.

*Later

“Derek Atwell, your hearing will be tomorrow and you will be free. *Correctional Therapist

I smile

I can’t believe my dream is coming true.

Unknown POV

“It’s all his fault that my daughter is gone. Make him pay.

“How? Do you want me to shoot him? 

“No, that would be way too easy. It’s time for the long game. I want you to watch them from a distance and when the time is right. Pounce on them.

“Okay.

Narrator POV

It’s been a few months since Derek has gotten out of prison and everything has been wonderful. Andrea and Derek got married. Derek reunited with his family and friends. Mack got out of prison a month ago and of course, he will be meeting up with Derek and Andrea soon. Mack promised them some BBQ food. 

Life has been good for Andrea and Derek, all they need now is to meet their princess. Naya Renee Atwell will be born soon.

Andrea POV

Derek is hanging out with his friends while I’m at home on the couch. I’m eating chips and ice cream and enjoying myself when I get a weird feeling. 

“Omg, my water just broke. Let me text everyone.

I text the family group chat and notify everyone. Derek promises to meet me at the hospital while his parents come rushing into the living room. 

“We called the ambulance and they should be here soon. How far apart are the contractions? *Momma Atwell

“I don’t. My water broke and the pain came.

“Okay. Well, just deep breaths.  Honey, please get her bag. *Momma Atwell

“Okay. *Dad Atwell

We hear the sirens 

Derek POV

I rush into the hospital and rush towards the elevator. I press the up button and the elevator doors open. I press the 5thfloor and the elevator moves. I hope I didn’t miss the birth. The elevator doors open to the 5th floor and I spot the nurse’s station.

“Hello, Which room is Andrea Atwell?

The nurse looks at the computer and types.

“No Andrea Atwell here.

“You must be mistaken, her water broke. Maybe she is in the ER.

She checks.

“No, Andrea Atwell is in the ER.

I will go check myself.

I walk away and get back into the elevator.

I get off at the lobby and walk around to find the ER. 

I walk into the ER and I instantly spot my Dad.

“I knew y’all was here, that nurse lady was tripping. Talking about Andrea isn’t here.

“Son, Andrea isn’t here.

“Stop, kidding. Why would you be in the ER if my wife isn’t giving birth?

“Your mom went in the ambulance with Andrea and 3 blocks away, the EMT kicked your mom out of the ambulance and shoot her.

“What!? Where is Andrea?

“We don’t know, the police are now investigating.

“How is Mom? 

“Stable. She got shot in the leg.

“Okay. I hope Andrea and Naya are okay.

*Hours Later

The Police found Andrea bleeding but Naya is gone. My daughter is gone and I don’t know what to tell Andrea when she wakes up.

Unknown POV

“How much for the baby? 

“250k

“Sold! The Black baby girl is now with the Marshalls.

I walk away smiling because I know I have my revenge on that black bastard. A daughter for a daughter.

by Lisa

What IF? (Chapter 7)

Izzy POV

Weeks went by after that dream and nothing is really back to normal.

‘I’m pregnant!

‘Yes miss, that’s why happens when you have unprotected sex.

‘Listen Doc, I know that. I’m just surprised.

‘Here’s the information and your prescription for prenatal vitamins. Make sure you make appointment for two months.

*After the doctor appointment

I can’t believe I’m pregnant and its Justin Timberlake.  How am I going to tell my parents? How would I even get in touch with JT and tell him? Would he even believe me? How would Jessica take the news?

I’m so lost and confused.

Justin POV

Weeks went by after that crazy random dream about Izzy. And I can’t stop thinking about her. On my birthday,  you would think I would be happy, a big party(planned by Jessica) but in the back of my mind I was thinking about Izzy. If she was here, I would be getting some bomb birthday blow job. We would later slow dance and practically make love on the dance floor. Then I would finally pull her away to some secluded area and make love to her for real. Sigh

Sex with Jessica is lacking. Its not as passionate and sensual than being with Izzy. I wish I could’ve chosen to be with Izzy. I miss her so much and I wonder if I will ever see her again……

It’s February now and I’m sitting in my him office in L.A. Jessica is away making a movie. So it’s just me and the kids(dogs).

*Ring! goes my cell phone

‘Hello

‘Hello Justin

Omg it’s Izzy!

‘Izzy. how did you get my number?

‘it’s a long story but can we meet?

‘Okay, I can take the next flight out to New York

‘No. I’m here in L.A. Are you home?

‘sure. Umm come over.

‘okay. be there in 30 minutes.

*30 minutes later

I’m opening the door for Izzy.

‘Hey how are you?

‘I’m good and you.

‘I’m okay.

‘So let’s sit down and talk.

‘ I remember our alternate dimension life.

‘wow. I thought I was the only one.

‘Nope. I’m also almost 3months pregnant by you.

‘How?. Wait I know how. It wasn’t reality

‘ It’s crazy but here.

She hands me the sonogram picture.

‘  we are having a boy.

‘Wow. I start crying.

‘ awww. What’s wrong?

‘I always wanted a child especially a boy. ‘aww. he is going to be a mini you.

‘ nope. He is going to be the perfect balance of both of us.

‘OMG he is going to be crazy then.

‘ haha, nah just full of energy and probably a genius.

‘okay Well I should go. We will keep in touch and I will let you know when the baby is born.

she is leaving already. No!

‘ Stay the night.

‘what? I don’t think that’s a good idea

‘It’s okay. Jessica is away doing a movie.

‘okay, Just this once.

‘yay!

Izzy is pregnant with my child and spending the night. I wonder what’s going to happen tonight……..

by Lisa

Top 10 favorite things I bought On Amazon

1) Air fryer

NUWAVE BRIO 3-Quart Digital Air… https://www.amazon.com/dp/B075X3287P?ref=ppx_pop_mob_ap_share

2) cross body bag

Double Compartment Large Flap… https://www.amazon.com/dp/B06Y5WH952?ref=ppx_pop_mob_ap_share

3)PMS Panties

INNERSY Women’s Period Panties… https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0821B7V79?ref=ppx_pop_mob_ap_share

4) IPad and Phone holder

Tablet Ipad Stand Holder, SAIJI… https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0814XRMJJ?ref=ppx_pop_mob_ap_share

5) Shower Caddy that sticks on wall

KINCMAX Shower Caddy Basket Shelf… https://www.amazon.com/dp/B07YV5FW9W?ref=ppx_pop_mob_ap_share

6) Purse Hooks

mDesign Metal Wire Over The… https://www.amazon.com/dp/B07LC4BDX3?ref=ppx_pop_mob_ap_share

7) color pencils

Koh-I-Noor Polycolor Drawing… https://www.amazon.com/dp/B007Y0B7JC?ref=ppx_pop_mob_ap_share

8) foot massager

HoMedics, Triple Action Shiatsu… https://www.amazon.com/dp/B00DPMDWAA?ref=ppx_pop_mob_ap_share

9) wig Hangers

5 packs Haofay Wig Hanger,… https://www.amazon.com/dp/B07HRQFWFY?ref=ppx_pop_mob_ap_share

10) bed Base Zinus Shawn 14 Inch SmartBase… https://www.amazon.com/dp/B006MISZOC?ref=ppx_pop_mob_ap_share

What do you think about my list? Do we share the same favorites? Please comment below

by Lisa

33 Things I love

A/n: In honor of my birthday. Not in any particular order

1) My strength and resiliency to continue after many obstacles that I have faced.

2) My smile (gap and all)

3) My tattoos

4) creativity

5) Baking Skills

6) sexual freedom

7) body

8) Mind

9) Courage

10) loyalty

11) Spirit

12) Heart

13) My slick mouth

14) My messy handwriting

15) My stretch marks

16) My unruly thick ass hair

17) My pretty ass nail beds

18) The way I light up when I see food

19) The fact that I’m a morning person

20) My power to not hold grudges

21) My capacity to love

22) my cheeks cause they are just like my moms

23) My fashion sense( I wear what’s comfortable)

24) My laugh

25) that I can drink water and eat vegetables with no problem

26) My addiction to shopping

27) that I like to be prepared

28) eating chocolate chip cookies with my favorite people

29) Helping others

30) Kids

31) Holiday decorations

32) Laying in the ocean

33) Loving myself and others for infinity

by Lisa

Untitled Poem 6

I’m standing stationary in the middle of the street.

The cars of life are zooming by but I can’t move.

Because I can’t make a decision

I have a question lingering in my mind

What do I want to do with my life?

School isn’t a option at all

Should I go right or left?

Should I stay in traffic or would it be safe on the sidewalk?

The sidewalk feels like settling

Being on a corner just peddling

While life is just moving at a steady pace

Not trying to face the rat race

Not going to worry about having a work hubby

Don’t have to deal with the anxiety of deadlines

But if the the 9 to 5 ain’t me

Then what is?

by Lisa

Inner Thoughts 5/9/18

I’m not a quiet person

I’ve been talking since birth

Fighting and screaming for attention

Which in turn gives it to me

But either people don’t comprehend what I’m saying or they don’t value it

Sometimes I have random thoughts of being silent

Mute

I’m tired of using my voice and people not valuing it.

They won’t hear my overly opinionated, congested voice

Just read my words and feel it

Or don’t

Tired of talking to an echo

When I should be talking to stadiums full of people

by Lisa

The Girl That Never Was

Inspired by True and firsthand events

 

The girl was only 14 when her mom got on crack and fading into the oblivion

only a girl herself when she found out she had to be super woman

cooking

cleaning

taking care of children that wasn’t hers

Because the adults are having adult problems

Forced to grow up and be stuck in chaos

always taking care of her brother

sister

granny

Mom and Dad

That she didn’t have time to take care of herself

no time for education… high school dropout

no time for fun and self-reflection……. depression and other mental illness are active

no time for learning about sex…. gets taken advantage all the time.

She is the girl that never was

 

 

by Lisa

Unapologetically Me

I’m so honest that some might find my words rude 

Unlike most women with the exception of my belly, I like being fat

My thighs are nice and makes me feel like a sultry  when I don’t wear pants

I collect mugs and I have no clue when that started 

I’m passionate about women

Equality 

And cookies

I believe that you should always indulge in something.

Whether it be eating a midnight snack

Buying another pair of shoes 

Or ordering random stuff from Amazon

I treat myself like a Queen

And I have so many dreams 

And goals that in a list in my mind

I overthink 

All the damn time 

And I have no regrets about that 

I find that to be my best quality

I can actually say that my mind has never really failed me

Well except with Math

Math is my mortal enemy.

I only have one fear 

Failure 

Being the woman stuck in a unhappy relationship

In a crappy work environment 

To have the resentment bubble in my belly 

Just like when a kettle of water boils

The heat and desire  of the envy I feel when I lurk through someone Facebook

Omar is going on a vacation 

Sarah just had a baby

Keisha is engaged 

However being married and having babies isn’t on my list 

I’m just envious of everyone having precious moments while I’m sitting in my tub

Submerged in depression 

Cause I want is a connection

To people

To places

I’m sitting on the edge of the tub awaiting my fate

And I’m glad I’m going through this battle

Because major key alert 

Being humble is apart of the success and growth process

The rain makes you appreciate the sunny days. 

by Lisa

Inner Thoughts 4/7/16

I’m back and hopefully I was missed. Here’s the latest thoughts in my head.

I broke up with a boyfriend years ago and now he is in a abusive relationship with his new girlfriend. 

And apparently this is all my fault not because I broke up with him. Being with me all those years made him soft and open minded to  bull shit. I basically made him weak.

This whole thing is side eye and eye roll worthy. 

Part of me admittedly feels guilty and another part of me is like 

Fuck it

I’m not responsible for grown ass people and the relationships they get into. 

I wish he would leave his girl 

Not to be with me

But to be free from the emotional

Mental and sometimes physical abuse

Yes Men do get abuse 

And no gender should be dealing with abuse.

With the knowledge I have

I know he won’t leave her

And they are somewhat in the isolation stage

Which means the stage will be death

And it’s a very sad thing to think about 

by Lisa

Why does everything have to be Defined?

This is based on a class discussion about Stephen Wiltshire drawings.

Stephen Wiltshire is an autistic man that draws things based on his memory. He can see a landscape for 20minutes and be able to make vivid drawings.  Like this below. 

A classmate asked that should his work be classified as art? Are we only labeling it as art because of his disability? If it was a”normal” person would his drawings be considered art? 

I think Disability or not, his drawings are art. It’s not like he is coloring a picture. This drawing is vivid and masterful. Isn’t art suppose to boundless and full of expression? What do you think? 

 

by Lisa